Caught in a rut

Feeling somewhat dissatisfied with my life at the moment. I wake up every morning feeling like I haven't slept though I did, eagerly (make it desperately) jump into bed for a 15-min nap before I leave the house, drag my feet to the train station, struggle to hold my balance on the crammed trains when there's no pole or handle within arm's length, spend the morning at my table waiting for lunch, sit at my table in the afternoon waiting to knock off...

Life shouldn't be like this, shoud it? Other than for the purpose of saving up money for the flat and to pay off the bills at home, I have no idea why I am doing what I am doing.

Please let me find myself soon.