It somehow feels like I'm never going to finish my apj assignment though the deadline is this Friday. One last shoot tomorrow and I won't be visiting that god-forsaken place for a long time. Imagine all the taxi $$ spent. Tomorrow the fishermen are going out to sea at about 6 plus. That means I have to wake up at 5 and spend more $$ on taxi ride.

Whines aside, those fishermen are really nice. Had my first motorcycle ride today to Yio Chu Kang MRT to go home. =)

I can't wait for everything to end. It's like how I was desperately hoping for internship to end last semester. (w)

"Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than standing in a garage makes you a car."

~unknown

This quote really quite resonated with me though yz and I have changed our FYP topic. *guffaws*

Been too lazy to blog these days. Counting down the days till the exams end.

Can't believe I just spent 1 hour on the phone with someone I didn't know. It is always so nice to find like-minded people. I swear almost everyone who studies mass comm has the same ideals and are totally sick of people telling us "ohhh go be a reporter! it's a glam job!".. "go join SPH! (or mediacorp)...

*insert eye-rolling smiley*

Anyway, it is high time to think about what to do after graduation (other than WAT that is)... anyone want to hire me?

A little bummed by the rain but nevertheless glad to have discovered another quiet nook in Singapore. I almost forgot how much I loved the smell of the sea.

Thanks to yz for sending me this song. So poignant the lyrics.

可惜不是你 - 梁静茹

这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉 像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你 不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点 骗了自己骗了你 爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气 但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远 但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最后 曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔

那一段 我们曾心贴着心 (我想我更有权力关心你)
可能你 已走进别人风景 多希望 也有 星光的投影

努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远 仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远 但闭上双眼 我还看得见

可惜不是你 陪我到最后 曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手 还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你 牵过我的手 还能温暖我胸口

ugghhh

We may have come from the same womb but we may as well be citizens from different planets.

I am a dreamer. He is a realist. I have lofty ideals. He has both his feet on the ground.

So what's wrong?

My mother listens to him more than she listens to me.

Oh no, every single noun, verb, adjective and punctuation that drips from his mouth are rare pearls of wisdom that are lapped up hungrily.

Who can blame her? He is after all so much older and "wiser", has "been there and done that".

But why must they place the limitations they place on themselves on me? It is unfair.

It happened time and again.

It reminds me why I so want to move out as soon as I can and why I so badly want to leave the country to work.

renewed inspiration? how long will it last?

Much to my surprise, I actually enjoyed talking to the photojourn prof this afternoon (with some others of course). Maybe I should have given him a better appraisal yesterday? :p

To make the banal look exotic... to look at everything with a fresh eye... to be inspired by our journey on the MRT, by our HDB estates... This is one heck of a task and a lifelong learning process. I ought to get my butt off my chair and stop drowning in my recent lethargy if I seriously want to improve my skills.

Anyway, here is a recent picture of my nieces. :)

A friend told me this:

"don't bother with what other people say.... take it into account, and see how you can do it yourself

very often others try to impose the limitations they impose on themselves on others as well... unintentionally"

It doesn't provide me a solution but it does make me feel slightly more hopeful about certain things. Thanks for the encouragement.

Thanks also to ZY and (x) for showing me around the East area today (yesterday in fact) :p It was my first time walking around Geylang. Sleazy as the place was, I enjoyed the experience of seeing a different side of Singapore. The tau huay's pretty good too. :)