First the Johari...

Now it's the Nohari window!!!

Even more fun!!

I wish...

I could say I am genuinely happy but that would be lying to myself.

I am emotionally high-maintenance.

Oh well, at least I'm honest about it.

These pigeons..

freaked the hell out of me today.

They were perched on a nearby building minding their own business while I was snapping pictures.

Then this uncle came and scattered a big box of bird seeds on the open space right beside where I was standing. In an instant, at least a hundred birds swooped past my head, aiming for their afternoon snack. Some of them came so near I could feel the flutter of their wings on my neck.

*shudder*

I could only stand still and pray, "Please don't shit on my head."

I don't think I can look at a pigeon in the same way again.

My Johari Window is ruined...

Arena (known to self and others) calm, independent	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, accepting, adaptable, bold, caring, cheerful, clever, confident, dependable, energetic, friendly, happy, helpful, intelligent, knowledgeable, loving, mature, modest, observant, organised, patient, religious, responsive, sensible, sentimental, shy, trustworthy, warm, wise, witty
Façade (known only to self) complex, logical, quiet	Unknown (known to nobody) brave, dignified, extroverted, giving, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, kind, nervous, powerful, proud, reflective, relaxed, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense

All Percentages

able (8%) accepting (16%) adaptable (16%) bold (8%) brave (0%) calm (16%) caring (33%) cheerful (41%) clever (8%) complex (0%) confident (25%) dependable (16%) dignified (0%) energetic (8%) extroverted (0%) friendly (41%) giving (0%) happy (8%) helpful (8%) idealistic (0%) independent (25%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (33%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgeable (8%) logical (0%) loving (41%) mature (16%) modest (8%) nervous (0%) observant (16%) organised (8%) patient (8%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (33%) responsive (8%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (25%) sentimental (8%) shy (8%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (25%) warm (16%) wise (8%) witty (25%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 20.2.2006, using data from 12 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view'>http://kevan.org/johari?view=meiyan">view meiyan's full data.

Description Breakdown (12 people)

Hao thinks: sentimental, loving, intelligent, caring, confident, able.
yz thinks: intelligent, dependable, witty, trustworthy, independent, confident.
carmen thinks: patient, trustworthy, calm, observant, knowledgeable, sensible.
doreen thinks: confident, dependable, organised, intelligent, witty, modest.
ziyu thinks: independent, sensible, mature, adaptable, wise, calm.
Mariah thinks: clever, friendly, independent, witty, observant, bold.

andrew loh thinks: warm, religious, shy, cheerful, friendly, loving.
kchan thinks: cheerful, religious, friendly, loving, responsive, trustworthy.
poink thinks: cheerful, caring, friendly, religious, accepting, warm.
samuel thinks: caring, helpful, intelligent, sensible, mature, energetic.
wui jia thinks: accepting, caring, adaptable, cheerful, loving.
404 thinks: cheerful, happy, friendly, religious, loving.

Now quite obviously, the last 6 persons on the have gotten the wrong "Meiyan" here.

Religious! omg.. u all know how I feel about religion...

Quote of the day courtesy of YZ:
"It's funny how we take offence if people say we r religious. XD"

Happy Birthday, Love :)

Johari's window

It's a Johari's window. Stole this from yz's blog. :p

Click here please!

Wishes

Inspired by YZ's wish post, I too have some wishes of my own.

1. That we will get to watch Mayday in HK.
2. That FYP will turn out well.
3. That April 5 will come really soon. :)

Again, I am touched by the amount of goodness that some people can contain in their hearts.

*smile*

Apparently, the bear's name is Gabriel. *lol*

In need of positivity

I realise I have been posting a series of negative entries.

Makes me seem like a really unhappy person after I read through.

But the truth is I am not unhappy. It is just that I have been doing a lot more bitching and swearing lately. It is a stress reliever la. *lol*

The next post will be a happy one. :)

losing steam

For all the enthusiasm that I started with for tuition, I am fast losing my energy for it.

Life in uni has never been as hectic as the last couple of weeks. It was tough squeezing in time to teach 4 students, do FYP photo shoots, have FYP meetings and schedule driving lessons.

And this week there's the Life Script assignment to hand in which I haven't started on without question.

Another kid is moving in with us again. This home is starting to feel like a public hostel to me. Well maybe that's an exaggeration but it is losing a bit of homeliness.

This time, for real, I am contemplating moving back to my old place on my own after coming back from WAT.

Hopefully my mom and my tenant approve.

Is this bad karma?

I don't think I have ever bitched so much in a single day but someone's really crossed the line too far by:

1. Taking me for granted
2. Telling lies
3. Totally wasting my time
4. Being sneaky and inconsiderate

Bitch.

YZ: So sorry you had to endure all the @#$@%^!. Thanks a million for listening and helping me with the email!

Feeling unsettled...

Somehow no matter how much you try to be the best friend you can to the people around you, somehow things will happen that will let you down.

I remember the few times when H had last minute matters and had to break dates and I almost always got mad even though I knew I was being totally ridiculous and unreasonable. Of course now, he's learnt by now how not to incur my wrath. :p

Maybe it's because I expect too much but aren't promises meant to be kept?

I don't know. Maybe I am just making a mountain out of a molehill as usual and I will come back 2 months later and cringe at this post.

Hopefully things will turn out for the best.

*sniff*

I suck at goodbyes. It is when I turn into this teary-eyed incoherent piece of crap - in public. I am so glad it is now over and done with.

Anyway 2 months of singlehood = full steam ahead for FYP

Just 6 more weeks to the submission date!

Now pass over the Red Bull!!